I think Gerald May stood in front of the same tree as I have and questioned God. I have stood before that tree screaming my pain out to God agonizing over why He allowed us (me as Eve) to make the choice that led to sin and separation from Him. May eloquently states the words that have pained me, that I have been afraid to utter, in Grace and Addiction.
"What would happen to our freedom if God, our perfect lover, were to appear before us with such objective clarity that all our doubts disappeared? We would experience a kind of love, to be sure, but it would be love like a reflex. Almost without thought we would fix all our desires upon this Divine Object, try to grasp and possess it, addict ourselves to it. I think God refuses to be an object for attachment because God desires full love, not addiction. Love born of true freedom, love free from attachment, requires that we search for a deepening awareness of God, just as God freely reaches out to us." (p 94)
As I God and I peel away the horrid layers of my addiction, I realize that I am blessed to be able to choose love.
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